I don't really make plans anymore. I think there was a time though, many years ago that i could make plans and stick to them, that i could decide way in advance what i might be doing a particular day. Now I wake up in the morning and have no clue, i might get asked by the first person who rings my phone "what are going to do today"....
usually I have no plans, i have to make it up as i go along. I am almost living "in the moment" (maybe Eckhart Tolle would blush), but I wasnt trying to. I just fell into the abyss of no time frame (no watch, no schedule), and I can't say whether it is good or bad, only that I remember that alarm clocks are stressful evil noise makers and I think had i stuck with using one i would be mentally ill now.
I dont really know what i am doing with my life, but I know for me, life is for living.
Here is a video of today. I spent alot of hours, shoveling donkey poop that finally defrosted in JuJu's stall.
Xoxoxox
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Crazy Wolf, Dead Peacock, and Sunshine
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I am on the hunt for a good chunk of sunshine, but always something comes up where i only get the tail end of the bright ball in the sky.
I try though. There are always things to discover if I leave the cabin, and that makes it well worth it.
This is quite mundane... but so can be reality for us all...
I am on the hunt for a good chunk of sunshine, but always something comes up where i only get the tail end of the bright ball in the sky.
I try though. There are always things to discover if I leave the cabin, and that makes it well worth it.
This is quite mundane... but so can be reality for us all...
xoxox
Thursday, January 27, 2011
RIP Beep Beep, I Tried.
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my chicken Beep Beep died yesterday in my arms.
I am doing better today, although still really upset ---- i have to foreWARN that the video below is a little bit disturbing, there is a dead chicken, crying , yelling, and grief. It's been a really hard winter for me and I feel that the isolation from other humans has made it even harder. (Which is why i am talking outloud to a video camera everyday, to help keep me sane.) The loss of my animals though, on any level, any animal, any season always makes me extremely upset. Especially when they have to suffer and be sick. I have suffered and been ill, laying on my death bed with celiac sprue before so I know the fear, pain, and peace that comes with the fading of the body.
Beep Beep had something called "sour crop" which I was not able to diagnose till it was too late.
If your chicken is sick and has a bulging chest, lethargic, watery poop, droopy wings, heavy breathing and bad putrid breath they may have sour crop - and can be saved if it is caught early enough! Beep Beep's blockage (which is located below the neck on their chest) was really swollen and huge (felt like a soft rubber stress ball consistency), I tried giving her olive oil with with a dropper, then massaged the swollen crop over and over. She did pass a small amount of it on her own but it was just too much. The advice to hold her on her back and induce vomiting didn't work for Beep Beep at all, nothing came out.
Please read more HERE about this if you suspect your beloved chick might have it.
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also... anyone wanting to leave a rude comment on this post will be immediately erased and banned as spam, so please keep this one peaceful.
xoxoxoxox
my chicken Beep Beep died yesterday in my arms.
I am doing better today, although still really upset ---- i have to foreWARN that the video below is a little bit disturbing, there is a dead chicken, crying , yelling, and grief. It's been a really hard winter for me and I feel that the isolation from other humans has made it even harder. (Which is why i am talking outloud to a video camera everyday, to help keep me sane.) The loss of my animals though, on any level, any animal, any season always makes me extremely upset. Especially when they have to suffer and be sick. I have suffered and been ill, laying on my death bed with celiac sprue before so I know the fear, pain, and peace that comes with the fading of the body.
Beep Beep had something called "sour crop" which I was not able to diagnose till it was too late.
If your chicken is sick and has a bulging chest, lethargic, watery poop, droopy wings, heavy breathing and bad putrid breath they may have sour crop - and can be saved if it is caught early enough! Beep Beep's blockage (which is located below the neck on their chest) was really swollen and huge (felt like a soft rubber stress ball consistency), I tried giving her olive oil with with a dropper, then massaged the swollen crop over and over. She did pass a small amount of it on her own but it was just too much. The advice to hold her on her back and induce vomiting didn't work for Beep Beep at all, nothing came out.
Please read more HERE about this if you suspect your beloved chick might have it.
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also... anyone wanting to leave a rude comment on this post will be immediately erased and banned as spam, so please keep this one peaceful.
xoxoxoxox
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Beep Beep the chicken is SICK :(
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my donkey riding, shoulder sittin' spunky fun smart wonderful chicken Beep Beep is really sick.
3 days ago i found her suddenly acting lethargic and the other hens had pecked her till she was bleeding out her ear. I rushed her inside the cabin and cried for an hour.
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I have given her apple cider vinegar, ginger and usnea in her water... but i am not sure she is going to make it. It's been a chicken roller coaster this winter, but this chicken... is... my baby. She was a chick when i first got her, and JuJu had nailed her with her hooves and almost killed her. Beep Beep eventually learned to be great friends with the donkey and rides her back everyday. I really dont know what to say - I look forward to spring time when life is something full of hope and ease.
Xoxoxo
my donkey riding, shoulder sittin' spunky fun smart wonderful chicken Beep Beep is really sick.
3 days ago i found her suddenly acting lethargic and the other hens had pecked her till she was bleeding out her ear. I rushed her inside the cabin and cried for an hour.
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I have given her apple cider vinegar, ginger and usnea in her water... but i am not sure she is going to make it. It's been a chicken roller coaster this winter, but this chicken... is... my baby. She was a chick when i first got her, and JuJu had nailed her with her hooves and almost killed her. Beep Beep eventually learned to be great friends with the donkey and rides her back everyday. I really dont know what to say - I look forward to spring time when life is something full of hope and ease.
Xoxoxo
Monday, January 24, 2011
To The Lil' Local Library and Beyond- (a bit of fail)
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The girl on the phone told me the library opened at 3:30.
Away I go.
xoxoxox
The girl on the phone told me the library opened at 3:30.
Away I go.
xoxoxox
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Beep Beep the Chicken RIDES JuJu the Donkey
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JuJu the donkey gives rides to Beep Beep the chicken.
I LUVVvvvvVVVvVVVvVvVvvvv freakin LUV them!!!!!
xoxoxo
JuJu the donkey gives rides to Beep Beep the chicken.
I LUVVvvvvVVVvVVVvVvVvvvv freakin LUV them!!!!!
xoxoxo
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Looking for a Bath... Finding Adventure? Alotta Angels?
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Not having a bath for a month, motivated me to get out from the cabin one more time, before this week's set of snow storms arrive tonight!
xoxox
Not having a bath for a month, motivated me to get out from the cabin one more time, before this week's set of snow storms arrive tonight!
xoxox
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Going To and From the Grocery!
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Going to the grocery aint what it used to be.
Walking a mile to a plowed road where the truck is parked, scraping snow off the truck, getting down the mountain safely, (i didn't film inside the grocery, sorry, that place was a crazy house!), and then the hardest part.... coming back up the mountain and hoping to get to my front door.
Pretty mundane, but pretty complicated.
Luckily I had a special friend who rode with me...
xoxoxx
Going to the grocery aint what it used to be.
Walking a mile to a plowed road where the truck is parked, scraping snow off the truck, getting down the mountain safely, (i didn't film inside the grocery, sorry, that place was a crazy house!), and then the hardest part.... coming back up the mountain and hoping to get to my front door.
Pretty mundane, but pretty complicated.
Luckily I had a special friend who rode with me...
xoxoxx
Friday, January 14, 2011
Fixing My Spring Water... In The Dark
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Most of ya'll know by now, i have been having every water problem thinkable since winter started. The last few days I had an increasing problem with sediment coming from my outside pump (cause of course my inside water has been frozen for weeks)- there was not just a lil dirt in my drinking & cooking water, but a dead salamander so decayed it's legs were gone, large pieces of bark and leaves, and the clincher that sent me out into the night... little shavings of plastic with bits of plumbing glue on it (somehow from back when the piping was put underground.)
I will drink salamander decay water ANYDAY over plastic!!!!!
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xoxoxox
Most of ya'll know by now, i have been having every water problem thinkable since winter started. The last few days I had an increasing problem with sediment coming from my outside pump (cause of course my inside water has been frozen for weeks)- there was not just a lil dirt in my drinking & cooking water, but a dead salamander so decayed it's legs were gone, large pieces of bark and leaves, and the clincher that sent me out into the night... little shavings of plastic with bits of plumbing glue on it (somehow from back when the piping was put underground.)
I will drink salamander decay water ANYDAY over plastic!!!!!
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xoxoxox
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Snow Walk (ft.) JuJu the Donkey
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Me and JuJu went for a walk today in the snow, looking for sunshine and finding other fun stuff like turkey tracks, ice in the creeks, pretty waterfalls of water.
But then JuJu runs off with some kids and I have to go find her in the dark.
Xoxoxox
Me and JuJu went for a walk today in the snow, looking for sunshine and finding other fun stuff like turkey tracks, ice in the creeks, pretty waterfalls of water.
But then JuJu runs off with some kids and I have to go find her in the dark.
Xoxoxox
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Breaking Icicles ft JuJu the donkey
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I like, I dont like, I like. What do I like?
I like JuJu. I like life.
Xoxoxoxo
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I like, I dont like, I like. What do I like?
I like JuJu. I like life.
Xoxoxoxo
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Luck Cabin under Snow Seege
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Here's a lil video from the last few days of snow storms...
my laughs are all the kind that comes from crazy people who are snowed in alone for too long. That is not my happy laughter- it's called serious stress, hardship & isolation. I don't like the person I am right now.
On a lighter note, icicles can be really beautiful.
xoxoxox
Here's a lil video from the last few days of snow storms...
my laughs are all the kind that comes from crazy people who are snowed in alone for too long. That is not my happy laughter- it's called serious stress, hardship & isolation. I don't like the person I am right now.
On a lighter note, icicles can be really beautiful.
xoxoxox